Van Gogh
when I last saw you
i did not know it was our goodbye
we stood on the bridge
your arms wrapped so tight around me
i thought for just a moment I felt your
soul entangled as one with that of mine
we watched the sun
paint the sky as did once Van Gogh
i leaned into you
as you softly kissed my neck and ear
i did not know then
the tender moment was not to last
but a brief encounter of two souls
trapped by fear
BY THE TROUT RIVER
i learned unanswered questions are
really just ones I don’t like answered
how can the same love which once
saved you become an instrument of
suffocation without even a warning
we stood under the cherry trees with
first leaves of Autmn surrounding us
you hesitated to say goodbye I knew
the harder I tried to hold on the further
you drifted and I wanted to know why
do you remember how I tried so hard
to tell you the journey would be too
much for you and that I should stay
but you convinced me you said with
small steps we would be us forever
how can two ancient souls created as
one spend an eternity from the other
each lost and alone searching forever
i asked God but he is still pouting in
silence angry with my years of denial
you were suppose to be the anchor
forever keeping me grounded with
you while I built us a house each brick
thoughtfully placed with pieces of us
near a trout river where the enchanted
frog prince perched waiting for my kiss
*Kalopsia
do you remember
how there was no beginning
and no end because our souls
have always exsisted as one
how we walked for miles
my hand entertwined with yours
pinky sliding between your fingers
my head resting on your shoulder
swimming in a pool of deceptive peace
our souls could have played forever
watching in silence the world around us
stealing kisses with each glance and smile
listening to the psithurism of the trees
whisping things only our souls could hear
how we both clung to each moment
you skillfully holding my chin in hand
gazing deep into the depths of my soul
words of reassurance slithing in my ear
So lost in the kalopsia of my own mind
*(n.) the delusion of things being more
beautiful than they really are
LAST RIDE
astride the beast I can feel the rumble
starting low and traveling up my body
i straddle my thighs around your hips
the straight pipes start their roaring
guttural, thunderous retort, crackling
holding on, my arms wrapped tightly
around your waist with anticipation
my heart racing with true excitement
you turn, look and smile, I smile too
swooshing warm summer eve’s wind
wraps itself around my entire body
kissing my nose, cheeks, chin and lips
running through my long blond hair
creating a mess of knotted strands
thinking, I want this to go on forever
i let go of you raising my arms up high
at this moment with you I am happy
yet know for us this will be our last ride
TIME TO SAY GOODBYE
If you’re always the one waiting
If your questions go unanswered
If the time to plan never comes
If you are always just last minute
If you hold no priority in their life
Then the time has come to say
Goodbye
SAUDADE
*(n.) nostalgic longing for something or
someone that was loved and then lost,
with the knowledge that it or they might
never return; „the love that remains“
YOU ask me if I can still smell the sillage of lilacs and moss
feel the warm sun kiss my face
feel my hand slide into your hand
YOU ask me if I can remember the smell of peppermint breath
the taste of your lips upon mine
the taste of salt on your skin
YOU ask me if I still cry over your betrayal
over unkept promises
over all that never will be for us
Yes
I do
BELOVED
I longed for an eternity
To find you
To catch you
And when I finally did
I squeezed so tightly
I broke your wings.
FAREWELL
Fly love
Find the very things
To fill your needs
All the very things
Unable to give
Was I to you my love
absquatulate
the moon chuckles and shakes his head
the stars hide behind invisible clouds
the Earth‘s rotation comes to a stop
my lungs fill with water as i slowly sink
down
down
down into the abyss of nothingness
dying inside since the day you left without
saying
goodbye
do you remember how you promised forever and I said forever was really a very long time but you said your heart beats inside of mine
you named me Cara
your Cara forever
you my Lex forever
you told me
we were peace
we were love
Your muse
Your love
Your soulmate
Your everything
One soul. One heart
GONE
Sometimes
I close my eyes tight
And begin to imagine
You, with all my might
Oh how I for you long
Whispering to myself
“I miss you so terribly”
I open my eyes again
But you are forever
gone
SIRENS
Like sirens on cliffs singing
With silver tongues luring
Such beauty one of a kind
Shiny new full of promise
Words like fine heroine
The muse gobbles with greed
Satisfied to the brim is ego
Believing the mirage of bliss
Yet the newness tarnishes
Off the once favorite muse
Sirens bore of the mundane
Sing new songs to be heard
The muse awakes too late
wreckage from jagged cliffs
Now drifts along in silence
Wiser to the sirens singing
HIS REGRET
with resolve
she stood across from him
and stretched out her hand
she was finally on her way
ready for her last goodbye
her words lingered heavily
in the space between them
he stood across from her
her words met with silence
her hand remaining empty
he did not accept goodbye
her words lingered heavily
in the space between them
he knew she would be back
she always came back to him
yet this was some how different
but he couldn’t ask her to stay
her last words would
linger on
for him
Forever
SILVER TONGUES
Such pretty words some can sing to your ego
All dressed up in sugar, spice and all that's nice
Tricky, sneaky words making you feel so special
Remember how easily they glide from the tongue
Slithering into ears of that next oh so special one
THE NET
he cast out his net
sat Waiting patiently
luring me in slowly
how could I resist
with colorful Promises
of a magical place
where we would rule
with love together
once my wings caught
bound with no escape
he turned and left
with not one word
and no regret
Caterpillar
confident in his resolve
he trapped the caterpillar
he gave her no more thought
when he finally did decide
to look closely into his trap
to behold what he had caught
she spread her wings
and flew
far far away🦋
Silence
This silence is so maddening
My instincts are heightened
Tension and turmoil building
The torment of time passing
My soul screaming loudly
chest so tight and aching
I check the phone once more
Nothing
This time I was so careful
Believing I was very clear
Honest with my intentions
Your intent to mine so near
This silence is so maddening
I know what all this means
Pushing the thoughts away
Not wanting to face the truth
You can't escape the hurt
You can't pretend it away
You can't force your love
This silence is so maddening
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