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All Fairytales come to an End [poems]

Updated: May 8, 2021

Van Gogh


when I last saw you

i did not know it was our goodbye

we stood on the bridge

your arms wrapped so tight around me

i thought for just a moment I felt your

soul entangled as one with that of mine


we watched the sun

paint the sky as did once Van Gogh


i leaned into you

as you softly kissed my neck and ear


i did not know then

the tender moment was not to last

but a brief encounter of two souls


trapped by fear

BY THE TROUT RIVER

i learned unanswered questions are

really just ones I don’t like answered

how can the same love which once

saved you become an instrument of

suffocation without even a warning


we stood under the cherry trees with

first leaves of Autmn surrounding us

you hesitated to say goodbye I knew

the harder I tried to hold on the further

you drifted and I wanted to know why


do you remember how I tried so hard

to tell you the journey would be too

much for you and that I should stay

but you convinced me you said with

small steps we would be us forever


how can two ancient souls created as

one spend an eternity from the other

each lost and alone searching forever

i asked God but he is still pouting in

silence angry with my years of denial


you were suppose to be the anchor

forever keeping me grounded with

you while I built us a house each brick

thoughtfully placed with pieces of us

near a trout river where the enchanted

frog prince perched waiting for my kiss


*Kalopsia


do you remember

how there was no beginning

and no end because our souls

have always exsisted as one


how we walked for miles

my hand entertwined with yours

pinky sliding between your fingers

my head resting on your shoulder

swimming in a pool of deceptive peace

our souls could have played forever

watching in silence the world around us

stealing kisses with each glance and smile

listening to the psithurism of the trees

whisping things only our souls could hear


how we both clung to each moment

you skillfully holding my chin in hand

gazing deep into the depths of my soul

words of reassurance slithing in my ear

So lost in the kalopsia of my own mind


*(n.) the delusion of things being more

beautiful than they really are

LAST RIDE


astride the beast I can feel the rumble

starting low and traveling up my body

i straddle my thighs around your hips

the straight pipes start their roaring

guttural, thunderous retort, crackling


holding on, my arms wrapped tightly

around your waist with anticipation

my heart racing with true excitement

you turn, look and smile, I smile too


swooshing warm summer eve’s wind

wraps itself around my entire body

kissing my nose, cheeks, chin and lips

running through my long blond hair

creating a mess of knotted strands


thinking, I want this to go on forever

i let go of you raising my arms up high

at this moment with you I am happy

yet know for us this will be our last ride


TIME TO SAY GOODBYE

If you’re always the one waiting

If your questions go unanswered

If the time to plan never comes

If you are always just last minute

If you hold no priority in their life

Then the time has come to say

Goodbye

SAUDADE


*(n.) nostalgic longing for something or

someone that was loved and then lost,

with the knowledge that it or they might

never return; „the love that remains“

YOU ask me if I can still smell the sillage of lilacs and moss

feel the warm sun kiss my face

feel my hand slide into your hand


YOU ask me if I can remember the smell of peppermint breath

the taste of your lips upon mine

the taste of salt on your skin


YOU ask me if I still cry over your betrayal

over unkept promises

over all that never will be for us

Yes


I do


BELOVED


I longed for an eternity


To find you

To catch you


And when I finally did

I squeezed so tightly

I broke your wings.


FAREWELL


Fly love


Find the very things

To fill your needs


All the very things

Unable to give

Was I to you my love

absquatulate


the moon chuckles and shakes his head

the stars hide behind invisible clouds

the Earth‘s rotation comes to a stop

my lungs fill with water as i slowly sink

down

down

down into the abyss of nothingness

dying inside since the day you left without

saying

goodbye


do you remember how you promised forever and I said forever was really a very long time but you said your heart beats inside of mine


you named me Cara

your Cara forever

you my Lex forever


you told me

we were peace

we were love


Your muse

Your love

Your soulmate

Your everything


One soul. One heart


GONE


Sometimes


I close my eyes tight

And begin to imagine

You, with all my might

Oh how I for you long


Whispering to myself

“I miss you so terribly”

I open my eyes again

But you are forever


gone

SIRENS


Like sirens on cliffs singing

With silver tongues luring

Such beauty one of a kind

Shiny new full of promise

Words like fine heroine

The muse gobbles with greed

Satisfied to the brim is ego

Believing the mirage of bliss


Yet the newness tarnishes

Off the once favorite muse

Sirens bore of the mundane

Sing new songs to be heard


The muse awakes too late

wreckage from jagged cliffs

Now drifts along in silence

Wiser to the sirens singing


HIS REGRET


with resolve


she stood across from him

and stretched out her hand

she was finally on her way

ready for her last goodbye

her words lingered heavily

in the space between them


he stood across from her

her words met with silence

her hand remaining empty

he did not accept goodbye

her words lingered heavily

in the space between them


he knew she would be back

she always came back to him

yet this was some how different

but he couldn’t ask her to stay

her last words would

linger on

for him

Forever

SILVER TONGUES


Such pretty words some can sing to your ego

All dressed up in sugar, spice and all that's nice

Tricky, sneaky words making you feel so special

Remember how easily they glide from the tongue

Slithering into ears of that next oh so special one

THE NET


he cast out his net

sat Waiting patiently

luring me in slowly

how could I resist


with colorful Promises

of a magical place

where we would rule

with love together


once my wings caught

bound with no escape

he turned and left

with not one word


and no regret

Caterpillar


confident in his resolve

he trapped the caterpillar

he gave her no more thought


when he finally did decide

to look closely into his trap

to behold what he had caught


she spread her wings

and flew

far far away🦋

Silence

This silence is so maddening

My instincts are heightened

Tension and turmoil building

The torment of time passing


My soul screaming loudly

chest so tight and aching

I check the phone once more


Nothing


This time I was so careful

Believing I was very clear

Honest with my intentions

Your intent to mine so near


This silence is so maddening

I know what all this means

Pushing the thoughts away

Not wanting to face the truth


You can't escape the hurt

You can't pretend it away

You can't force your love

This silence is so maddening







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